S*x & Relationship Advise

Dear Arik (Arik Raymond's Blog ARB)
 l was heartbroken and hurting ,l needed someone to talk to, so l went to the only friend l knew he was always there for me and we culd talk abt anything .on that fateful day l went to him bcz l needed a shoulder to cry on,he was there for me listened to my grievances then before we knew it we where kissing n one thing lead to another,l got pregnant l wanted so badly to keep the baby but l knew l couldn’t because he was married and this would destroy his marriage we agreed l would get rid of it,l did n l told him we can’t be friend anymore because our friendship was already ruined he agreed and we parted ways…….my real problem is now l have meet a swit, loving and caring guy he wants to marry me but he is HIV +,l understand we can have a normal relationship n he say we can adopt babies n l don’t have a problem with that but l want my own baby n lately l hve bn thinking abt the babyl aborted l jus can’t help feeling guilty l cant forgive myself for wht l did to an innocent soul,but @ that moment l thought l was doing the ryt thing didn’t want to hurt my friend’s wife…………l wont deny the fact that what l did was wrong l jus need advice should l stay with my boyfriend or look for someone who has the same status as me ......am confused